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Sunday, September 29th, 2002
1:43 pm
haha...i'm sooo sorry. I have another journal..it's at www.deadjournal.com/~just_true same old shit, just in purple. it feel sso wierd. ::memories of ella_ella::

current mood: sorry

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Wednesday, August 14th, 2002
9:25 am
mmh. Ash is all mad at me...becasue i told Adam that she thinks he's ugly...::sigh:: GOD I"M SORRY!?!!? he already knew anyway..and he didn't care...and plus she fucked me over with that whole Miss_skittles shit. and i TOLD him not to say anything to her about it...and i don't think he will..whatever...god i'm sorry! i didn't mean to! ::crys:: well we'll all get over this. well anyway...its really hot and gross..an di need to strip. hold on. ahhhh. okay, well anyway...mom might be dieing my hair i'm not sure what to do!!! god! some people say yes..and others no..what to do what to do!? oh and i'm changing my journal colors and shit bit not now cause i don;t fucking feel like it. and oh *good news* they're NOT building a house between us. tehre simpy renovating one thats somewhat across the street from us. mom made the mistake. well fuck...i wanted to say something...uh oh well it twas forgotten.

current mood: guilty

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Tuesday, August 13th, 2002
2:50 pm
Last night was really wierd. i think my house is like haunted or something..okay..my sister started crying becasue there was a "boy" in her room...yeah that sorta freaked me out. then omg i swear i saw a fucking little kid...a boy like hiding under my desk. and that just kinda botherd me...he was dressed in like "old time clothes" he had this like white shirt on...kinda freaky. ew i don't want to live here anymore..oh and wait it all ties together anyway. some parts of of out house are part of teh original including my sisters room..and part of my room...the back bathroom..and some one my mom's room. and this house it really old..it use to be like a diner i think..then they made it a house...or whatever...but anyway i remember when i was born i was in the same room as my sister is now i would always see things...like one time i rememebr i saw like 12 figures around me...and i use to be all like...it was scary but i didn't really grasp the whole consecp that "fuck! this isn't a dream!" and one time...i was calling for my moterh and i was calling and calling and then i see a figure at the door and i asumed it was her. and i said something to it...but it didn't respond it just fucking stood there...it was scary...and i hate, to see my sister go through the same thing i went through for about 11 years. well anyway...they're building a house between Stephen and Jills house and ours. okay what the fuck? this fucking Mr.tuttle clown bought it and expects to build a fucking HOUSE there? no way...okay, a. that land part is wat to small to build a house on... b. they probablty won't have any property anyway and c. were the fuck are they gonna put the drive way? that just pisses me off. everything is changing! everyones moving aroung and getting a divorce and leaveing...and shit like that. and okay first it was that spic house behind us then it was the montsory school across the street from us now it's THIS?! jesus fucking christ okat i'd say the length from out house to this "new house" is going to be like...30-50 feet. you know my father wouldn't have bought the house if he knew these assholes were going to sell their property...to some retard who own a fucking funeral home. ugh this is going to suck..well it's probably for one of his kids or something...hopefully someone my age or alittle older a male inperticular will move in...but with my luck? haha i'll be stuck next to some obnoxios 25 year olds...who in which have bad gardening skills.

current mood: scared

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Monday, August 12th, 2002
8:34 pm

Which Angel would you be?
By
Angel

I am 40% Punk Rock

Well, I may know what punk is, but... Okay maybe some people think I am punk, but is that enough? Nope.

Take the Punk Rock Test at fuali

yeah anyway...


current mood: cold

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11:41 am
round ass



You Have a Round Ass!


All the guys think that you're a cutie.

That's thanks to your ghetto booty.

You've got a ass that looks like it's black.

And color doesn't matter, because baby got back.



What Ass Do *You* Have??


but...but...i'm white.

current mood: bored

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Sunday, August 11th, 2002
9:06 pm
a conversation with myself 0_o

LittlePeanut414: YOU must be a weasly
LittlePeanut414: YOU must be a weasly
LittlePeanut414: damn right I am!
LittlePeanut414: damn right I am!
LittlePeanut414: red hair and a hand-me down robe..HA! spells weasley to me!
LittlePeanut414: red hair and a hand-me down robe..HA! spells weasley to me!
LittlePeanut414: I already told you i was...
LittlePeanut414: I already told you i was...
LittlePeanut414: hahaha! trying to hide your true idenity are you!?
LittlePeanut414: hahaha! trying to hide your true idenity are you!?
LittlePeanut414: no...
LittlePeanut414: no...
LittlePeanut414: ha! fine...::flies away::
LittlePeanut414: ha! fine...::flies away::
LittlePeanut414: come back here you scoundral!
LittlePeanut414: come back here you scoundral!
LittlePeanut414: hahahaha! neverrrrrr!!
LittlePeanut414: hahahaha! neverrrrrr!!
LittlePeanut414: come back before i beat you to a bloody pulp!
LittlePeanut414: come back before i beat you to a bloody pulp!
LittlePeanut414: ::nmounts broom:: ::flies:: "give it here malfor or i;ll knock you off your broom!"
LittlePeanut414: ::nmounts broom:: ::flies:: "give it here malfor or i;ll knock you off your broom!"
LittlePeanut414: what the fuck am i doing...
LittlePeanut414: what the fuck am i doing...
LittlePeanut414: ...walks away...
LittlePeanut414: ...walks away...

current mood: crazy

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8:35 pm
WHAT THE FUUUUUCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKK!??!?! my family has to die....espacially my father...okay. the tempreture outside is about 70 degress. the tempreture inside is close to 90. and my fucking dad won't let me turn the fucking air conditioning on. what a fucking dumb ass! jesus fucking christ. and then he comes over and like grabbs my neck...and i was just "get off!" and he's like "you need to chill the fuck out! change our fucking attitude!" fuck that! and fuck YOU too!

current mood: enraged

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10:33 am
Yesterday was "fun filled" i went to see "signs" with Trevor and it was really scary but it was a good movie...i want to go see it again...then i got all pissed at him in the car because he was all telling my mom about nick. and so i didn't talk to him. and he wanted to come over and i didn't want him to but my mother said yes anyway..so we just kinda swam. he's a cool kid. oh and i talked to Otto last night, he's pretty cool. i mean like the way i act around his is different now. it was like this obsessiveness...hate...whatever...friends...and now since i hated him i can be myself around him and shit..which is good! ^_^! lets see...nothing is really happening. well i guess i will go now..

current mood: flirty

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Thursday, August 8th, 2002
1:16 pm
god what the fuck...everyone is like convinced that i'm going to "invite people over" what the hell? this is what i get...suspission is my life. what the hell? god. They have no reason to think that i'm going to invite people over. and my fucking sister called me just to "warn me" fuck her...fuck everyone. god what the hell?

current mood: depressed

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12:38 pm
I wish the mail came in the early morning rather then late afternoon. I'm expecting a letter from matt today. yay! well..lets see.. i'm home alone until 5 which is good. i went for a walk around town this morning. it was lovely. i'm trying to br somewhat healthier. well anyway. hope gets back teh 19 now...so i probably won't see her until the 21 or 22. which is....nothing. well i was thinking about High School yesterday. and i realised that it's not going to be that bad. uh..i talked to nick a couple night ago. and everything was okay. we were normal again. now this doesn't mean that i am going back to him. because i'm not. i'm going to to the "go with the flow" type thing. and i have also realised that it's my fault that i don't have a boyfriend...i meanb guys loev me but well...i'll explain that later

current mood: blah

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10:21 am

Aries



What's *Your* Sex Sign?


i'm an aries anyway..


current mood: bored

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Wednesday, August 7th, 2002
1:49 pm
[about you!]
[1]name: Lauren
[2]age: 14
[3]birthday: April 14, 1988
[4]location: Randolph, NJ
[5]where were you born?: morristown, NJ
[6]where do you wish to be?:
[7]whats your hair like?: it's soft and blonge and long.
[8]what about your eyes?: they are..uhm...a grayish green
[9]how tall are you?: 5'1"
[10]you secure with your body?: somewhat...
[11]so what kind of music do you like?: i like all different kinds...coldplay..dashboard confessional...nine inch nails...adema...TRUST company....stained...uhm...and stuff like that

[family]
[12]parents names: Jody and Tom
[13]any step monsters?: not yet
[14]siblings?: yes.
[15]what are the bastards names?: Carlee and Sarah
[16]do you have a dog?: I did...
[17]do you have a cat: theres about 50 next door
[18]any other pets?: i have a guinea pig...and a hamster
[19]whats your dream pet?: i want a tiger
[20]have a big house?: well...when you get inside the ceiling is all tall...
[21]do you drive?: not yet
[22]if so, what kind of car do you have?: --

[this or that:music]
[23]saves the day or piebald?: Saves The Day
[24]le tigre or bikini kill?: None
[24]the butchies or bitch and animal?: none
[25]mushroomhead or chimaira?: none
[26]barenaked ladies or blink 182?: barenaked ladies
[27]weezer or the strokes?: Weezer!!
[28]sparta or at the drive-in?: at the drive in
[29]sparta or mars volta?: none
[30]the white stripes or the b52's?: the white stripes
[31]selby tigers or bangs?: niether
[32]pedro the lion or dashboard confessional: dashboard confessional
[33]punk or emo: emo
[34]punk or riot grrrl?: punk
[35]riot grrrl or emo?: emo
[36]pop punk or punk rock?: punk rock
[37]screemo or softcore?: what?
[38]which core(hard, soft, queer)?: hard?

[your computer]
[39]you have aim?: yes
[40]how bout yahoo?: yes
[41]who still has icq?: uh...
[42]you have msn?: yes
[43]kazaa?: yes
[44]winamp?: no
[45]whats your winamp skin?: ::twitch::
[46]have a digi cam?: yes...but i'm "not allowed to use it"...
[47]a webcam?: nope
[48]have a cd burner?: yeah
[49]got a dvd player on here?: i don't know..

[love life]
[50]have a girlfriend/boyfriend?: no
[51]how about a crush?: mmh. more or less
[52]do they know you like them like them?: well...i guess.
[53]tell us about him/her: no.
[54]have you ever been in love?: i probably thought i was
[55]do you still love him/her?: no
[56]ever kissed someone of the same sex?: yes....
[57]so you're gay right?: no, sorry
[58]are you out?: meep
[59]how far have you gone..sexually?: 3 letters. XXX
[60]whens the last time you had some action?: mmh...maybe in the beginning of july
[61]you're a virgin right?: yes
[62]how about oral sex(since the man says lesbians will always be virgins)?: no
[63]ever gotten your heart broken?: yeah i guess so
[64]ever broken a heart...hearts!?: i think so
[65]ever been cheated on?: i have no idea
[66]ever cheated?: i think so...but it was stupid.

[friends]
[67]do you have any friends?: yes.
[68]who's your best friend?: Hope
[69]who's your cutest friend?: uh....kayla
[70]best dancer?: uh...me!
[71]best singer?: hope
[72]nicest lips?: me or hope...actually all my friends have nice lips.
[73]nicest eyes?: mmh...hope...or me...or nikki...or kayla..
[74]most outgoing?: mmh...nikki and me i think. or hpe when she's drunk
[75]shyest?: hope or kayla.
[76]tallest?: i thik kayla
[77]shortest?: me *BOO YEAH!*
[78]are you anti-social?: if i want to be
[79]how many people do you consider true friends?: only one.
[currently]
[80]wearing: an onld navy "stretch tank top" jeans..and boots
[81]eating: nothing
[82]drinking: uh...my spit?
[83]listening to: i was listening to coldplay
[84]talking to: no one
[85]downloading any music?: nope
[86]watching tv?: no

[randomness]
[87]whats your favorite color?: purple or blue...
[88]whats your sign?: aries
[89]how about your chinese zodiac?: dragon
[90]is pop punk an oxymoron?: yeah.. i guess..?
[91]christian punk?: hahaha...duh!
[92]girl punk?: uhm..yes?
[93]whats your favorite month?: september
[94]favorite season?: fall
[95]favorite song?: i don't know...
[96]favorite band?: Adema
[97]favorite shoes?: the ones i'm wearing
[98]favorite shirt?: this white tank top that....i have. or my sweatshirt
[99]favorite pants?: the ones im wearing now
[100]favorite....thing?: hum...my...pillow.

current mood: good

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Tuesday, August 6th, 2002
8:04 am
now like..everyone in livejournal..thinks i'm a "bitch" and that i like...eat small animals. THANKS A LOT ASHLEIGH!

current mood: sad

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Sunday, August 4th, 2002
9:10 pm
I hate Canadians. really badly. anway. I went to Grammy's and there was a guy next door and it wan't Matt. yeah that was actually the high point of my day. Nick and I arn't getting along. ::cry:: i need to talk to him in person you know? ....maybe NEXT weekend...i hope so. i'm just going to like. not talk to him online ever again...until i speak to him in person. because you can't be as mean as you can online as in person. and it seems the more i speak to him...the less we get along. well it seems that way now. Hope called...she's comming back on the 15 or 16 which is AWESOME!!! she seems to be having a very fun time up there. but i want her to come back. and so does she. oh and i also get to see alan...yay?! oh i think i'm just going to give up on nick...just give up...well maybe i'll just go with the flow....see how that works out.

current mood: enraged

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10:36 am
Ash slept over last night. it was fun. we were all loud. i got no sleep what so ever but thats alright. uh...duh my family wants me to go one Valium...this shit for depression. and i was like...what the hell? i'm...not depressed. and there all like "yes..you are!" whatever...i'll go on it..my aunt told me that nothing bothers you when your on it. but wouldn't that be great for ANYPONE? ooh...i'm all happy. i get to go on valium! yeah anyway...it's all hot in my room. i think i'm gonna cry. i hate evan so fucking much...he's so stupid...he thinks i care weather he's alive or dead happy or sad. and he only tells me about his unsuccesful likings becasue he wants me to be "jelouse" ugh REATRD!

current mood: annoyed

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Saturday, August 3rd, 2002
2:49 pm
I got back from Joanna's a little while ago. I showed her my photo alblum. she liked it. oh yeah i don;t know if I told you this but Matt wrote me a letter and sent me pictures of him, he's really hot. anyway. Ash is comming over so i'm really happy. and she might be sleeping over so that makes me even happier. well anyway. Mom and I picked up some old ass pictures...from old ass disposable cameras. and one of them was from Thanksgiving. and like every picture was of me. it was wierd. I was like either drunk/stoned or a hardcore cum guzzler in them. I also got my pictures back from when i went to PA with hope. They didn't come out anyway. My sisters really have to stop lieing. they lied about useing up the rest of my camera....and they did. when they said they didn't...which was very easy to determine when i looked at the pictures and they were all of them and there retarded hamsters. and then Sarah ate this cow tail candy thing...of mine and said she didn't....we all knew she did...i "forgot" to call Trevor..oops!

current mood: happy

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9:39 am
last day of camp yesterday. if i knew how hard it was going to be to walk away from someone you know you love...but will never see him again....i wouldn't have. But i dad. and i'm not getting over this!!! and it sucks because when i come back for it all...it's not going to be there. and sure i have my memories...but they're only pictures and a picture is just one memory. just one. and it always seems that way when you need that memory the most. well...anyway. i have to go see Joanne this morning...oh then i have to go to shoprite to bye tampons and pick up pictures. lovely.

current mood: blah

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Friday, August 2nd, 2002
5:31 pm
i don't think i'm going to write in here anymore...its quite obvious that people don't care to read it...and it's become quite an annoyance...goodbye.

current mood: sad

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Thursday, August 1st, 2002
5:05 pm
Today we went "laser light bowling"...it was fair. yesterday we went "rafting on the deleware" that was just funny. jamie like died in the rapids. and maria and lindsey were like...having a war. and i was about to kill both danielle and crazy girl. crazy girl! crasy girl! crazy girl! and today is jamies birthday!!! yay!!! i want camp to be over really badly. and i want to forget about everything and everyone. and never ever look back on it. ever! i want pizza really badly.

current mood: hungry

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Sunday, July 28th, 2002
10:02 am
I went to see Otto yesterday. He looks thinner. and he has shingles...heh...but he's all not frrling well. but I talked to him for a while and i was "myself" which was cool. and i feel all bad because i was ignoring trevor for a while. but thats okay becaus ei spent most of the time with him anyway. uhm...oh yeah when we were leaving Nick was going out of his drive way on his bike and he waved to me. and i was soooo retarded and didn't do anything back. god i hate when i get all caught up in the moment that i just stare...i'm such a retard. I want to let him know that i am not in the palm of his hand...but i don't want to be mean you know? eh..whatever. duh my mom is talking about me being all "punk" god...i'm not...christ i have like a shit from hot topic that has alice and wonderland on it..and she's all "huhhhhh!" yeah anyway. danielle is all being a bitch i was wearing these bracelets that i wear like everyday! and she was all "you talking shit bout otto?" and i'm liek "noo..." and she's all "good. don't....and whats up with your bracelets?" and i'm like "what the fucks wrong with my bracelets?" and she said "i know why you're wearing them" then she walked away...duh what a fag.

current mood: groggy

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